I know he wants me to leave the house to him, he grew up here on this road and his whole family is here. But I have been here for 21 years and it is my home too, if I hated it here I would leavein a heartbeat but I am not ready yet, maybe someday.

It is 830 am, I just woke up, he is not on the couch but sleeping in the other garage where we have a very nice roomwith nice couches to sleep on. I guess that is what he will do for now.

It hurts my heart knowing this is my marriage, I ask God over and over again. WHY, WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS?